I learned with a chinese master in the subject. You breathe in imagining you are part of the air. Logically i mean. There’s nothing mistic about chinese meditation. Unlike people in Tibet and India that relates it with religion people in China uses meditation as a medicine. So again you breathe and imagine you are the air that gets in your nose and you imagine the path the air takes to the botton of the belly. So you imagine this circuit. Nose to belly and belly to nose. But you also have to count. So it goes like this: breathe in, breathe out count 1, breathe in, breathe out count 2, breathe in, breathe out count 3 and so on until you get to 10. Then you start again. You do it during 20 mins. You also should be sitting of the floor with your legs crossed in the known lotus position. If the floor is cold you can sit of a rug of anything actually. Then you can use a pillow to sit on. Your eyes have to be half open otherwise you can get sleepy and you mouth half opened. The eyes should be faced towards a white wall or something very neutral and there should be no noise or at least the least amount of it. Why do i do it? It’s the only thing that calms me besides Xanax. It’s the only way i get to sleep. If you do it right it’s a trip bigger than any LSD can give you. The idea behind it is to quiet your mind. By doing this routine you don’t have to think about not thinking which is impossible. You just change all your thoughts to just the way the air makes in your body and the counting from one to ten. It doesn’t seam much so it’s kinda annoying when you begin. Looks like you are doing nothing but suddenly you get it. Your brain starts to clear and you starts feeling really great. It’s a kinda hard feeling to describe but it is so unexpected that usually the first time you feel that’s enough to make you start thinking again and ruin the exercise. What do you gain? Focus. Samurais did it not to relax but to be better in their fights. More precise. Clear mind. After a lot of crap in a bad day it’s the only think that can put your mind at ease. Control. You start getting better control of your mind when in stress and that can be really healthy. I did my part. Now try to do it!
I never imagined that it could exist someone in this planet that don’t get moved by music. Who only turn on a radio to listen to the news. Who have no CDs and who cannot name more than a couple songs with enthusiasm. I met someone like that today and i can say it was a really great guy. The only strange thing was this. It’s not that he hates lasagna or chocolate or soccer or that he digs politicians or banks. He just don’t care about music. As he explain himself he says music is not mandatory in life. You dont need it to live and you can have fun with other things. He enjoys books for an example. It’s really truth what he says but still it sounds so strange. I was made to believe that with no music our lives has no inspiration. That we respond to music in a way that is so instictive that if we don’t have it ever we can loose motivation. I tried to wonder how it would be if i didn’t know any song at all but i have to say can’t grasp the feeling. My mind is too impregnated with music and sounds. But even if i don’t emotionally understand i have to say i totally understand logically and that makes me think that we are all really different and once we learn that and learn how to respect that everything is much easier.
I don’t know how did it get this way but everything is so fast and everybody is so busy that sometimes i can’t even tell what day of the week it is. So more than ever the good old Friday is really Shangri-la. We arrive home with our feet sore and our minds spinning. It starts the process of slowing down. It starts the process of becomming a husband again and maybe even take my wife on a date. What is hard is to find energy to do that. The bars are all packed and the traffic is crazy. Everyone wants to get home for the weekend. It’s time to start to remember i’m not exercizing and i’m not eating well either. It’s time to remember i gotta take care of myself. So making plans for next week is in order. Time to remember of our parents and the fact we have to see them more often. It’s so unfair when we don’t have the weekend of. I think we really need this time of the week to recharge and get ready for a new one. Lately i’m forcing my self to think about long term. I’m using my weekend to do something i can’t during the week. To be able to look for the whole year and the whole month and the whole life. To understand if i’m late or maybe going the wrong direction.