After 72 hours without almost no speed due to many things happening together i just laid in my bed after a great shower and started reading my posts. I’m not sleepy yet because of the adrenaline probably engaged by stress so now i again will start a process to cool down. That can be really healthy and it makes me wonder how common it is to be like that now a days. We life in rushes of stress separated by a couple healing days. It’s always like that. When you are in the middle of something really important it seams you forget about the planet and the bills and the meal and so on. You even forget to go to the bathroom sometimes. It’s amazing how strong our bodies are and that’s why we stop feeling the need for these thing but we gotta know we need to stop. The funny thing is that when we do stop it seams our body tries to collect our dues to it. When i’m in the middle of action i can get rain and cold weather and stay with no food and nothing wrong happens but when it end and i get to rest i get sick. Sometimes a cold or things like that. The most amazing is that the mind suffers in the same way. I can deal calmly and attempt in big stress situations but when it ends and i get home i get depressed. It’s very hard to wake up in the next day. A lot of people on filmmaking complain about this. It’s the lack of routine and this ups and downs that simulate a kind of bipolar behavior that reflects in out actual state of mind. Funny how the body works. It’s so perfect we usually overuse it.
Last week i started to watch a TV series called “Community” and i really enjoyed. It’s a comedy about a group of people that gets into community college and end up sounding a lot like ” The breakfast club “. I really needed a new Tv show but what happened next was too much. I started watching four or five episodes a day al least and i’m almost done with the two existing seasons. The worst is that i can see a pattern here. It’s not the first time i do things that way. Most of the times when i get really into something it becomes compulsive. I’m not sure if this is normal these days where we have to stuff ourselves very fast with every kind of things so we keep up or if it’s something that has to do with people like me. Compulsive people. Obese and alcoholics and workaholic and sex addicts. The good thing about aging is that you learn to recognize your own patterns so today i can stop my own compulsive behavior. At least for new kinds of issue. The problems are the old habits. As they say: “Old habits are hard to break” and the reason is the same as the one for compulsive behavior. Repetition. We have a way of learning thing in this world and it’s by repetition. The hunger to discover and learn can be destructive when not controlled and the way to control it is to learn to focus and to breath and to be able to analise one’s own patterns and compulsiveness. It’s great to be interested in all that surrounds us but in today’s world were there is too much information we gotta be selective. Now it’s the time to choose and to focus and more importantly understanding when something is addictive. Less is more guys.
The eternal solitude of the restless Mind 