It’s time for a check up and for me it’s time to get worried. Maybe because i always worry too much about this kind of thing and some say i’m kinda Hypochondriac. Maybe it’s because i didn’t do anything doctors asked me to do so i feel like a i kid going to school and learning there will be a surprise test for something he didn’t study well enough. Maybe it’s because it’s almost three years since i had the seminoma and so far everything looks great. Things just have to keep that way for two more years and i’m free to go. Finally maybe it’s because i’m fat and i developed some kind of fatty liver. Anyway those are the reasons and there’s so much going on when i do blood tests these days that i forgot if one always get worried about those. I have no fear of niddles and that’s something in my favor. I feel fantastic so probably that’s another thing of my favor. It i can tell you guys two things i learned about this are:
1: Please, please, pretty please don’t search the web to learn what you may have. Wait to talk to your doctor. The devil is hidden on the web and that’s where he comes out putting doubts in your mind and making you think you are doomed (and than you talk to your doctor and besides the signs of stress you are showing everything with you is perfect)
2: No sales are final. I’ve been called a VOMIT (victims of modern imaging technology) because i’ve made so many tomographys because of the seminoma that they actually found i little nod on my kidney that wasn’t there before. I got in panic just to learn that it never grew again…It has the same size for years now which means it’s nothing and many have those and if i didn’t do so many exams i would never learn about it. So if you see something weird wait to be concerned. Don’t waste life in something that doesn’t deserves attention.
So i’ve been delaying these exams for a couple weeks now but next week i’ll finally do it. I know it will be allright but worrying is already part of the ritual. So i worry and i delay a bit but deep down inside i know all will be alright and life is supposed to be lived but not death.
The eternal solitude of the restless Mind 
I’m glad you are getting your check up..always makes me nervous too..gotta take care of yourself.
Chris
I will!!! Thank you Chris!!!! š
I like your honesty. However, I’m not terribly fond of allopathic medicine. It was supposed to be used only in emergencies, but it’s become a ritual and it resists change and innovation. For example, I know of a Dr. Coldwell who has a 98% cancer cure. Do you think the AMA or the pharmaceutical companies are open to that? Not on your life. I know a homeopathic doctor that will give you a free consultation, and tell you about nutritionals that help the body heal. Here is an example of the power of one of those nutritionals:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3OewSDfaoo The open mind can find new and better ways of living.
I thank you for you advice but surelly you never had cancer. If you did you would have used all tools in your hand. Or you would die. I did chemo but i also treated my self with chinese natural medicine and i changed my lifestyle. Now i’m doing a check-up and honestly both allopathics and natural medicine doctors agreed that monitoring is crucial. Unfortunately there’s only the tradicional way and it is by doing blood and image tests….
Men should have support groups for things such as this. I’m with you, I tend to put off check ups with the “I feel fine” defense. Here’s to a clean bill of health for you.
True!! That’s a great idea… Thank you for the support!!!!
A very wise post, giulas. Learned from experience —
Know that your experience helps others, today it’s me it helps!
Thank you.
Thanks… If there’s anything about it you want to ask please feel free… i’m at giulas40@gmail.com… Cheers!!
After I became engaged (January 1999) my mother began looking up on the internet what was wrong with me. She was certain that I had PTSD, bipolar disorder, scizophrenia or some kind of mental illness. I think that she did not want me to have sex. I was 24 years old and half way through college. I was well liked and old enough. I still do not get what went wrong with my mother. Yes, she was getting older, but that is not a normal way to age. Usually people just get forgetful and grey hair, not mean in a structured way like she did. I have thought too that if she looked on the internet long enough she could find some box that I would fit in to in her mind and to her that was a great success. It was this sick twisted side to intelligence and technology. It was so sad for me to watch. She has cut down on this derisive behavior quite a bit since SRS sent me a letter when I was pregnant with Ezra (2005) and said that they would not take him from me, but she was trying to get my children removed from me. Now that Ezra is mine she is an ample grandma, he does stuff with him and she pampers him.
Wow… That’s a really hard relationship you have there… I wish you the best with it…
Eleven years ago, I went to an ear/nose/throat specialist because I had water in my ear. That water in my ear turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me. It very well might have saved my life. Because once the doctor finished his check on my ear, he found something odd going on in my neck. He ordered a biopsy and sure enough, I had papillary cancer.
My thyroid gland was removed, entirely. And thankfully, so was the cancer. That was ten years ago.
It’s all about keeping tabs on it. And I am glad you’re doing that. Keep doing it, my friend.
Thank you very much for the support. I also realized it’s all about keeping tabs… and i’m ok with it. Cheers!!!
My uncle was a mulit millionaire and he died from just three months of cancer back in March 2008. He was a good, honest, kind, well educated man too who lived near the ocean on Cape Cod in MA, USA. My uncle on my mother’s side of my family, my Uncle Frank died from prostate cancer around 2005. His family sprinkled his ashes over the ocean, but did not invite me to the funeral. Now my cousin Stephan Bernard (same name as the millionaire that died) has cancer in his jaw I have been told. Did you know that that is the same kind of cancer that Sigmond Freud had? It sounds very dangerous to me. I have not seen my cousin Steve Bernard since his wedding back in 2002, but I think that he was a good person. Mmm, his sister Lisa has my 1st born son and now they do not talk to me so I do not know what is going on, but I believe in the science of good health. I also believe that being a good person can help people to live longer.
I think i’m a good person and i’m sorry but i don’t agree with you totally on that. I saw good people die and i saw really mean people beat bad deseases. It happens. I believe the law of god is a little too complex for us to understand. Questions like: “Why there’s suffering in the world?” “Why do god let it happen?? ” are made from people that sees good as a regular human mind. That’s surely not the case. There are reasons for things to happen and we have not enough clarity to understand it. š
Wishing you improved health and healing. Seize the bull by the horns and take care of what you need to… All will be well…
Well, I was not saying that my relatives are bad people. Hmm, after my son Tristan was wrongly taken by SRS (child protective services) in Vermont, USA and given to my cousin in CT, USA (which is better than the foster home that he was in for some weeks, but still I am not allowed to see him or even hear his voice, by what appears to me to be her choice at this point atleast to some extent)…anyway after he was taken from his father and I and not given back and he was only 10 weeks old I’ll remind you I had a thought about human beings and how sure of them selves they can be when they are wrong. People had treated me so terribly since Tom broke up with me and even from the time he asked me to marry him. My own parents are the ones that lied to him and drove him crazy and drove him away from me and my aunt did too, but she is just my aunt and she is a child molester I think so I do not give andy creedence to what she does any more.
Anyway, my thought went like this. God gives us life and so he can take it from us. He is the one who c r e a t e d us to begin with.
After I had that thought two of my uncles died of cancer, both of my grandmothers passed away. My high school sweet heart (whose mother goes to my church) his mom that lady who goes to my church got cancer. She lost hair to it at one point, because she was wearing a wig. My girl friend in Wisconsin, USA gave birth to a dead little girl. It is called a still birth. She named the little girl Carolyn and she said that Carolyn (I think was the name) looked just like a doll. Still my friend; this friend that gave birth to Carolyn she said to me when I called her from Barre, Vermont and tried to get her to help me when I was in the midst of Tristan being taken from me she said to me (or maybe she wrote it in an email) she said “I do not believe you”. I have continued to try to be her friend, but I have been very confused for many years about why she said that.
When my son was taken from me only two people stuck up for me in any way at all, my mid wife and Tyler Tristan and Ezra’s father. I guess that Tristan and Ezra’s aunt Hadley did too, but what he said did not help.
And then all of this apocalyptic weather that has been happening and killing people. It doe kind of seem like my thought was right. ‘Cause I was thinking if Christ does return and the end of times that it describes in the end of The King James Version of the Bible happens, maybe it will just happen to individuals as God sees fit. If God gave us life than he can remove it and we would have no power over that.
Hopefully this thought that I am having is just a small, insignifigant piece of my existance, because I really do expect the best in life.