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We build our lives under the impressions of what we think our life it.

We hope and we get. We don’t hope and we don’t get it.

It’s like this huge universe of possibilities providing infinitely.

It’s pure quantum physics. It;s the world of Jesus.

That briliant son of god told us we should have faith.

Heaven belongs to those of faith and one only needs it to enter heaven.

One only needs to believe in god to be saved.

Saved from the fear of hell. From the fear of fading forever and having nothing left

to be remember. To loose the amazing moments spent in life.

After all probably this life here is what they call heaven. It’s when we are all

united. We are all one and all sons of god. Made of the same matter and

exchanging in infinite ways matter and energy.

If this is not heaven then what it is?

Anyway your faith will build what you believe in.

So you better believe in something. But how can you after learning this?

It seams like cheating. If i just need to believe something will happen it will?

Is it that simple?? Funny. I’m quoting Jesus again. I guess it is that simple.

Then why is it so hard to see it working? Why most feel they are in hell?

What is really the Devil? Maybe it’s the knowledge that all of this is and that’s just it.

It’s not a lie but if you take faith out of this equation everything becomes grey and

lifeless. No wonder the Devil is so powerful. He is the lack of hope. The lack of

faith. Hey! I’m quoting religion again even if i’m not trying at all. They say the

greatest trick the Devil ever played is to make us believe he doesn’t exist.

That’s what i’m saying all over again. The Devil is the non existence of belief.

Is the idea of “there’s nothing but this here”. It’s not a wrong idea but it’s twisted

because “this” can be what we want. Anything really. So a question remains.

What happens when we die? I guess if we have faith it will happen according to

our beliefs. If we don’t it will be just what it is. Faith in what? In these very things

we are talking about. The power of make things happen. The universe that

works for us. God we are and god it is. See…religion again!!!

It’s time for a check up and for me it’s time to get worried. Maybe because i always worry too much about this kind of thing and some say i’m kinda Hypochondriac. Maybe it’s because i didn’t do anything doctors asked me to do so i feel like a i kid going to school and learning there will be a surprise test for something he didn’t study well enough. Maybe it’s because it’s almost three years since i had the seminoma and so far everything looks great. Things just have to keep that way for two more years and i’m free to go. Finally maybe it’s because i’m fat and i developed some kind of fatty liver. Anyway those are the reasons and there’s so much going on when i do blood tests these days that i forgot if one always get worried about those. I have no fear of niddles and that’s something in my favor. I feel fantastic so probably that’s another thing of my favor. It i can tell you guys two things i learned about this are:

1: Please, please, pretty please don’t search the web to learn what you may have. Wait to talk to your doctor. The devil is hidden on the web and that’s where he comes out putting doubts in your mind and making you think you are doomed (and than you talk to your doctor and besides the signs of stress you are showing everything with you is perfect)

2: No sales are final. I’ve been called a VOMIT (victims of modern imaging technology) because i’ve made so many tomographys because of the seminoma that they actually found i little nod on my kidney that wasn’t there before. I got in panic just to learn that it never grew again…It has the same size for years now which means it’s nothing and many have those and if i didn’t do so many exams i would never learn about it. So if you see something weird wait to be concerned. Don’t waste life in something that doesn’t deserves attention.

So i’ve been delaying these exams for a couple weeks now but next week i’ll finally do it. I know it will be allright but worrying is already part of the ritual. So i worry and i delay a bit but deep down inside i know all will be alright and life is supposed to be lived but not death.