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We are probably all fighter. I heard that the other day. Mankind lived for millions of years fighting to survive in an environment where food should be hunted and we were also considered food by some. That’s why i feel hunger and craving. Because we needed this instinct to never forget to eat while there was something to eat. We didn’t know where there would be more to eat if ever. That’s why we developed creativity. It’s a mechanism spawned by fear. We needed to create defenses on the spot to fight of to run from other animals. We needed to create shelter when there was none. We needed to understand the way things work in order to survive. And our fight was a big one: Fight for survival. After these millions of years our instincts are printed in our genes so we keep doing what we learned before. But there is a lot of food. There’s very little fear. There’s tranquility. I know you all are probably saying: Yeee… You have tranquility…come spend a month at my house and you’ll learn the meaning of fear…lol… ok… i believe you but yet if compared to our previous history that’s peanuts. That’s why we would live for no more than 20 years and today we can do it over 100. I’m saying all this because there’s something about tranquility. Usually when i find myself really calm i feel there’s something missing. I worry. It sounds dumb to worry but still i do and i know a lot of people like me. Why is it so hard to just be? To let go and give up. To let the senses run the show and not the mind. Maybe this internal voice we have telling us to run while we can and to eat while there’s food never let us calm. Doctors say there’s something to do with a deep fear of death. To me one does not need to be a doctor to get this. Mankind always were afraid of death and this is not because we were fighting for survival. It’s because we don’t know what’s there after death? It’s because we know in our genes but we don’t want to accept it? These days we fight other kinds of fights. We fight to make money and to stay fit and we fight to stay sane. These are important fights to us now but for some reason they’re mild. More people seams to loose interest in fighting. More cases depression every year. More fobias. New kinds of mental deseases. New auto imune deseases. Things we never heard before. Seams like some are giving up and it’s hard to understand why since apparently things are easier these days. But then again maybe we were crafted to suffer and fight hard for our survival. In this case too much wellness can be bad to the health of our kind?

Its amazing how your imagination can run with you or against you. Is amazing that our imagination is something that lives inside our bodies but differently from any other part of our bodies we can’t have control over it. We can teach our legs to walk again even sometimes after long periods without even standing still but we can’t teach our brains to calm down when we are insecure or we can’t teach our mind how to proceed in situations of danger like an assalt or a combat in war. That’s why different people act differently and some are considered heroes and others cowards. The art of controlling the mind is very old but not widely used maybe because it’s really demanding in terms of discipline and perseverance. Yet those are the characteristics of the healthy mind. We learned to give more importance to “emergencies” and less to ourselves and so we took the space we needed to be disciplined and filled that space with these so called “emergencies”. The problem today is that the emergencies are becoming more and more frequent. Sometimes we can’t pick up our kids at school because some client asked for some “emergency” meeting that turns out being some group incentive program developed by some guru which helps workers to have more focus on their jobs! No emergency at all. At least not for us. By the way that’s an important issue: What is an emergency and for who it is an emergency? Maybe to your boss to show his crew is sharp as a bunch of Ninjas but certainly not for your kid that had to get a ride home with a very annoying girl from school. This way we kill little by little our power of control over our lives and our health. We can’t go to the doctor because we have too much to do. We can’t have lunch because we work too much and we can’t workout because there’s no time left. In this same fashion we loose control of our minds. Depression and anxiety attacks. Paranoia and all kinds of phobias. We lost the time and the discipline needed to keep our minds healthy and stuffed it with stress and anxiety. With endless meaningless information from all kinds of media. That’s how the system keeps our minds occupied because a mind that has discipline and is well controlled is harder to conquer.

I was born in 1969 and historians call people my age “the lost generation”. I even attended a lecture in cannes festival adressed to huge companies talking about this so called “lost generation” and it’s consuming habits. It was fun to learn that my generation is often mentioned as “against fashion and consumption ” or “a generation that doesn’t believe in brands and capitalism” . They said that after the easygoing hippies our generation was one full of super protective parents that sometimes are even competitive about this matter.. That unlike babyboomers we value lifestyle over money and quality of life over success. What i really liked the most tought was the opening of this lecture where they used a speech played by Brad Pitt in the Fight Club. The name of his character on the movie is Tyler Durden and the speech is the best definition of my generation i ever heard so i would like to share with you guys. Many of you know it by heart i guess but it’s always good to listen to these words:

” I see all this potential, and I see it squandered. Goddammit, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables, slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need. We’re the middle children of history, man; no purpose or place. We have no Great War, no Great Depression. Our Great War is a spiritual war. Our Great Depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised by television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars. But we won’t; and we’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off.”

I’m not worried about this generation of mine because the truth freed us a while ago. As a matter of fact the guys in that lecture made a big research to find out that between the babyboomers and the generation x (today’s young adults) my generation seams to be the more happy and positive about life. Congratulations lost fellas!!!