I saw it sometimes in my life. The face changes fast. The guy seams to be looking at nothing. At the horizon. After that something usually bad happens. There’s a switch most have that should not be turned on. It’s really like a switch. I can notice that seconds before everything was in control but something started a reaction that ended in the dead eyes and the scary look on the face. Once my older cousin looked like that and he literally spanked my younger cousin. My younger cousin really got hurt. Suddenly as if that demon was gone he stopped beating the boy and started crying right away screaming “why did you make me do it? you shouldn’t upset me like that!! i love you my brother. I’m sorry.” They were both crying. Years later i saw a guy pointing a gun to his father with that same look. Years later that guy shot three people dead in a bar. I didn’t shoot his dad at that day but he surely had it on him. Why? What happens in the mind when we loose control? It happened to me a couple times with very different proportions. I ended up screaming a bit but that was it. Even so i know that right after i ended screaming i already regretted my action. I think it’s the same kind of primitive reaction. Not just primitive because it looks uncivilized but also because it emerges from a place in ourselves we don’t even know it exists probably buried very deep down inside. This impulse changes many people’s lives and yet some can’t control it. Sad stories were written because of it. Maybe it shouldn’t be called a sin. It’s more of a curse we carry in our genes.

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