Do you guys ever felt a little afraid of going to sleep?? I think i do but not in a racional sense. Deep in my mind. These days i’m sleeping pretty well but that’s because of Xanax and some meditation just before bed. I really sleep well now but during most of my life i didn’t. I really didn’t. I’m talking about almost 40 years of going to sleep at four in the morning. I always felt great about it firstly because i love to live at night. Alone with not phone and emails or other kinds of distraction it’s the time of the day that i can produce better especially when creativity is needed. Secondly because i’m always feeling like i’m loosing something that is happening and i can sleep al lot after i pass away. But sometimes in notice just a tiny note behind all this ideas that says i don’t want to go to sleep and i’m afraid of it. Like if i fall in sleep i may not wake up again. I know it’s a kinda crazy idea because i already slept and woken up thousands of times in my entire life and i never died but still there’s something weird there. Maybe is chemical and maybe it’s psychological i really don’t know. What i know is we don’t control our dreams and we don’t remember many of them. Maybe there’s something about them. Maybe we have real problems in being alone and we can only dream alone. I’m not sure why but something took off my sleep since i was i little child. My father used to find me at three in the morning sitting on the top of the wall in the house we used to live. I was just looking at the few cars that would pass by. I was just trying not to sleep.
Hi Guilas41,
I am a bit of a night owl and get a lot of my writing done at night… Lately, I’m working to change it as we all need our beauty sleep. Not so easy. π
BTW, I have given you a Versatile Blogger award. Stop by to collect it! π
Elizabeth
Thank you very much night owl!!! An award! : )
Hi π
I always slept at 2am. It’s just that it’s good not to sleep at night. I really wanted to feel the serenity. It’s kinda relaxing.
I agree… It’s so beautiful to look at the quiet city on my window. The empty avenues… i just love it…more importantly… Silence!!!
Elizabeth and I are total night owl’s. I love the quiet of the night. My parents were never home when I grew up. My dad owned a restaurant and was home late like 1am so I would wait up and say goodnight. I agree that you and I and Eliz, have the most “Versatile Blogger Award” so far. I write about anything, and everything. I try to be creative and spark interests of my readers. Out of respect I do try to think of others, link and comment. My head is clear in the middle of the night. Thank you for reading my blog and being faithful. Jackie π
You know… It’s one of the best exchanges this one i learned to have with blogs. To write and have people that can give you some feedback on it is amazing. To read and be able to follow someone’s ideas is also amazing. So i think we end up exchanging with people with some of the same interests and concepts. It’s really amazing. Thank you!!
Sleep is so good, so glad you are finally getting some! Fear of not waking up used to keep me up at nights when I was a kid, but that was right after my grandfather died. It took years to get over that.
I know… once you get it it’s kinda hard to get rid of it. It’s interesting to notice how we really don’t want to be left alone… Maybe it all circles this fear. Maybe when you lost your grandfather you felt more alone and that already was reason enough!
that’s a poignant image, your dad finding you sitting at the top of the stairs unable to sleep.
if you fall asleep and never wake up, surely that is the best way to go
Sorry… I explained wrong. It was on the wall that separated the house from the street. It was easy to climb it. I was 4 years old… : )
Insomnia has been a constant visitor of mine, we talk, we sip coffee, and we read. And for the most part, we think a lot of things. I too am the productive person at night, and then a disposable creature by day. Ideas come to me like a warrior in the night, and of course, they come at night. π
I used to feel afraid of not being able to wake up (and sometimes I still do), but I just think that even if I worry about it a lot, if it’s meant to happen, it’ll happen even if I’m awake. Just always tell the people you love how much you love them, and thank a higher being for all the blessings before you go to sleep or just at the end of the day, and I hope it’ll make you feel better.
Thank you!!! I thank my higher being every night and that really helps. other thing that helps me is my wife. She makes me go to bed with her much earlier than i’m used to…i meditate and sleep… but if i was alone i would sleep much later!!
I totally understand this!
Tks…
I have always been an eight hours a night person. Which is why my disrupted sleep patterns have an impact on me.
Thankfully I have never feared sleeping, but I have never been able to sleep during the day, so just as well I was never a shift worker. Until lately, of course, when now I seem to sleep at all odd times.
Those days I do not sleep until 4am I really, really struggle the next day. If I get a good night’s sleep I can feel the difference in myself.
I am glad you wife drags you off to bed! J and I slept like babies in Qatar. Now we are back to our disrupted patterns.
I hope you manage to develop better sleep patterns – I am a firm believer in the value of sleep for our whole being: phsyical, mental and emotional.
I agree… I can really see the difference… But there’s something about me that doesn’t want to go to sleep… since i was a baby it’s like this… Thank you and i hope you are together soon.
Sleep, now theres a conundrum for you. Too much, you become lethargic, too little, youtire easily and make more mistakes and have more accidents [proven].
Sleep unfortunately is as important to us, as humans, as eating is. Without it we would cease to exist. 7 hours sleep a night is good for most people, more than that is not really necessary if you eat well and exercise.
Never thought about being afraid of sleep though, thats food for thought.
That’s me – too little is all that you said! And get scratchy and irritable, run out of patience easily.
You are right guys… But remember not sleeping usually doesn’t start as a choice…you get used to it and learn to get the best of it… but i would prefer to have my beauty sleep everyday… : ) I enjoy the night… to me it would be perfect to sleep from 2am to 9am…not possible though…
How can you talk about 40 years of going to sleep at 4am if you are 42 years old?
It is true… Not everyday of course but my parents told me i was always like this… That story about my father finding me at 3 a.m. waken looking at the street happened when i was 4 years old…